listening to: Fireflies, Owl City (yeah, it's been way over 2 years since i've been excited about an english song) yesterdaywow, what exactly did i do? Oh right, i woke up then crammed 2 weeks worth of truong hw. Oh man, i really cbf to like put in the effort to try. I can't handle the pressure now. Yeah, i survived the past 4 years with death a fail away but seriously, this year at truong has been the most difficult. It wasn't the work (ok, maybe it was) but the pressure and time allocated and put into every single lesson is enough for me to take a gun and shoot myself. I shouldve appreciated Mr Joseph more, he was so awesome. But the thing with me is that i need strict teachers. Cos when i start seeing them as less of a teacher and more of a friend, my marks plummet drastically. Like alot. Like putting a 1000000 tonne weight on my mark and pushing it off a cliff bad. Same with Miss Lam. She was strict like a biatch in the beginning so my marks shot up to like the 90s. But ever since she went kinda nicer, my mark is falling. watch me- it is. My log exam is so fail, im so sad atm. Well, i havent got it back yet but from the amounts of blank spaces and unsure answers, im pretty sure i didn't chuck a cindy van. I need to try harder. Anyone have any effort lying around?TodayToday i was in a foul mood. Like i was seriously mitchbitch. So like, in the morn, after tutor (omg, i got kinda told off by miss since my attention span kinda drifted and began drawing on my rubber) and like i was washing and vacuuming the car. Sis helped with the washing so i had to do the vacuuming alone. No prob there. I was just tired after it and just wanted to relax. I came back into the house and sis told me to chuck out the bin. So as i was taking the garbage out the bin-container-thingy in the kitchen, the bin fell. Then the fucking bitch slaps me hard. I went crazy and all these emotions that i've been bottling up from these past months just exploded. Argh, major fight. I just feel depressed atm. Sigh. I can't do fights if you havent noticed. I just feel regret even though i did nothing wrong (or did i?) Argh. FML. Tomrw: Hist presentation of project and truong :'(
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